Scared.

I just woke up from a nightmare revolving around the email I sent, scared for the fallout and response, and terrified that speaking up will only make Amy's situation worse. 

But the alternative is NOT speaking up.  That is worse!  Right?

I need the pep talk I give Amy every night, that now seems so damn stupid.  Yeah, yeah, yeah, need to speak up, can't let this stuff slide, have a right to be treated respectfully by the people hired to provide you care.

Oh god, I feel sick with dread. 

This is a tiny taste of how Amy feels in her own home.